When you come out as transgender, the freedom of Halloween is every single day. THIS WEEK: I talk to video essayist and host of youtube show Nyx Fears, May Leitz! We discuss the hell that is life in the DFW metroplex, what it's like coming out as trans to an existing fanbase, how she figured out her transness, how she navigates dysphoria, the ambiguities of identity and the challenges of articulation, where she got her name, what the heck a "woman" looks like, and how Halloween is basically Transgender Christmas. ALSO: A lengthy discussion about vulnerability and earnestness in online media criticism, particularly on youtube, and our problems with the over-valuation of "objective" criticism.

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Please watch May's coming out video "The Truth" right here, and follow the links below to all her other stuff.

YOUTUBE MAIN:Nyx Fears
YOUTUBE VLOG:May Leitz
TWITTER:@nyxfears
PATREON:Nyx Fears

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#ihaveagramophone. Make it trend, or I walk. THIS WEEK: Melancholy in the Sarah's world; the loneliness of Italy without friends at home to talk to; revisiting your journal is ALWAYS a bad idea; reflections on my conversation with Shannon Strucci in the previous episode; fear of asking friends and colleagues to respect your new name and chosen pronouns; the stress of being a stealth transgender person in college; good reactions from friends and family; how cis people can help trans people.

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It's time to dish about the creeps that make life miserable for women on the internet. THIS WEEK: I talk to youtuber Shannon Strucci, hot off the release of her feature-length video essay about parasocial relationships. We discuss how death in the family (especially parents) can other you from friends and colleagues, the gross and creepy harassment a successful woman gets, how gender affects one's success on a public media platform, the weird real life fanfic written about Jacksepticeye and Markiplier, what it's like being a woman on a film set, and much more!

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Check out Shannon Strucci's incredible series about parasocial relationships, Fake Friends:
Episode One
Episode Two

You can follow and support Shannon on the following platforms:
TWITTER: @plentyofalcoves
YOUTUBE: StrucciMovies
CURIOUSCAT: plentyofalcoves
PATREON: patreon.com/StrucciMovies

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Two months on HRT and second puberty is in full swing. THIS WEEK: I discuss the various changes I've noticed after two months on feminizing hormones; suddenly Sarah is starting to exist; a series of digressions on topics various and sundry. ALSO: Very few people have sent me emails, so I've decided to give the spammers their due. It's time to discuss the tragedy of the late Dr. George Pascal, whose affairs in Burkina Faso promise to be profoundly lucrative.

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Tips and tricks from a 19 year old film nerd. THIS WEEK: The wonderful Emily Lynch stops by to talk about her experiences coming out as transgender to her parents, presenting full time, and the various strategies of making oneself accustomed to their new identity. There are many jokes and japes along the way (bonus points if you get my sick Dark Souls reference), including tales of sperm donation and movie journies. ALSO: I recount my final days in Italy, and preface the next episode, which does not yet exist for you (or it does, and you're in the future-present compared to my present-past (relative to your present)). It's a good time for all and sundry!

Check out Emily's INTERWEB PRESENCE:

TWITTER: @AdequateEmily
TWITCH: https://www.twitch.tv/adequateemily
BLOG: http://adequateemilyreviews.blogspot.com/
YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCOH1FQCrI3EdO3gBjnH0Yxg

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When they demand that you disappear into the shadows again, the only choice is illumination. THIS WEEK: The GOP doesn't want LGBT people to adopt children, and of course this will disproprtionately effect the T; what happens when a fascist dictator blames a minority group for society's ills, cons the people into persecuting them, persecutes them successfully, and the ills of society remain unaddressed? Why, it's time to pick another minority, of course! Given the current political climate, is it such a jump to think that transgender people are next in line? They want us to go away, which is why we must make ourselves more public than ever. ALSO: Updates on being in Italy, including being sick, missing Pompeii, and sorting through pictures; asking myself when I'll feel comfortable thinking of myself as a woman; pondering the various developments of two months on hormone replacement therapy and whether they're real or just in my head.

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I'm elsewhere! Wow! THIS WEEK: A shorter episode digging into the conflicted feelings of an early transition trans person having to go boymode in another country for a month, looking for changes from HRT, and maybe feeling a little more calm? Hmmm.

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Am I emotions because drugs, or am I emotions because sad? THIS WEEK: My first ten days on hormone replacement therapy. What has changed? Has anything changed? How do I feel? Am I more irritable? Has my beard melted off yet? We also talk about #DropTheT, a twitter campaign by some in the LGBT community to drop the T, because unlike the lesbians, gays, and bis, the transgenders are [insert tired offensive anti-minority scapegoats that have been reused for every group to ever demand visibility]. While the campaign itself isn't much of anything, it does point to the growing a presence of a queer respectability politics. Now that many cisgender white gay folks have tasted normalcy, suddenly they have something to lose when transgender people become the subject of public outrage, and they would rather police what counts as legitimately queer than use their newfound privilege to stick up for those who still suffer. It's a tale as old as time, except it's 2018 and we're all going to die. Hurray!

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The day of the appointment looms, and stress begins to take hold. THIS WEEK: A shorter episode due to surprises. Getting ready for my trip to a women's center to get bloodwork done for HRT, but is it what I want? Is it a waste of time? We also talk briefly about E3 and... not a heck of a lot else.

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Sometimes the healthiest identity is a constructed identity. THIS WEEK: The stress of friends moving across the country, the stress of losing friends altogether; plans for starting hormone replacement therapy, and considering internationl travel in the early stages of HRT; discussing Carta Monir's selfies; the power of selfies to reclaim personal agency; the means by which society robs everyone of their agency, but tricks heterosexual, cisgender, white, male, able-bodied folks that all their privilege is a result of their efforts; we get into something of a sticky wicket by way of comparing apples and oranges; as always, punch nazis.

Here is a link to Carta Monir's piece about selfies for Them. Magazine: https://www.them.us/story/selfies-and-trans-visibility

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