Hot take, ice cream is better than Red Dead Redemption 2. THIS WEEK: It's May Leitz's first official episode as cohost! We discuss her reasons for jumping ship (in a good way), workshop future show segments, answer reader questions about how to deal with acquaintances/friends/family having an attitude about your transness, and how to feel sure in your identity when you haven't socially transitioned. May recommends Scorsese's After Hours and An American Werewolf in London, while Sarah recommends Mother 3 and thoroughly does not recommend Red Dead Redemption 2.

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Check out May's new album She's Bleeding, You Asshole over at nyxfears.bandcamp.com, out on Christmas day!

Watch for Sarah's new video In Transition at youtube.com/c/letstalkaboutstuff

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Sometimes, the best advice is DON'T. THIS WEEK: I visited the home of May Leitz to talk about our mutual self-harm practice of making videos for the internet. In this candid, flighty, stream-of-consciousness conversation, we discuss how we choose the topics we want to cover, how to deal with weird or negative viewer feedback, what it's like to be a transgender youtuber, as well as all those wild hot tips you need to disregard in order to find your own success.

Despite her wishes, you can find May on Twitter @nyxfears, where you can also track down all her other work. Watch her bandcamp for the release of her amazing new album on Christmas day!

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Alternate title: This Is Fine (Take 3). THIS WEEK: It's been a hot minute since the last episode went up, huh? Sorry about that, life's been a hell. But the hell is almost over! We're near enough yet that we don't have to contemplate the worse damnation that will assuredly follow. In this episode, I discuss why I had to record this episode three separate times before being happy with it; some observations about hormone replacement therapy as I approach the six month mark; the weirdness of an unexpected thanksgiving; and, finally, I have a VSA regarding the future of this podcast.

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So many people engaged in their civic duty! THIS WEEK: Discussing the lunacy of "identifying" as a younger person; a crisis of mental health among trans people; good news from Massachusetts and Colorado; discussing the truly historic turnout of the 2018 midterms and how people disappointed by the "blue wave" aren't looking close enough; perhaps fascism can be stopped before it causes truly irreparable harm? ALSO: Reader questions about the distinction between nonbinary people and transgender people, and the challenges of discovering your transness much later in life; plus some updates about future projects from your Very Productive Girl!

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SOURCES:

Historic Midterm Turnout: http://time.com/5452258/midterm-elections-turnout/

Implications of Blue Wave: https://slate.com/news-and-politics/2018/11/midterms-blue-wave-statistics-data-analysis.html

You Can Still Be Transgender If You Don't Feel Dysphoria: https://everydayfeminism.com/2016/05/transgender-without-dysphoria/

6 Affirmations for People Who Don't Feel Trans Enough: https://everydayfeminism.com/2017/03/trans-folk-dont-feel-trans-enough/

Reddit Thread - Realizing You're Trans At Later Age: https://www.reddit.com/r/asktransgender/comments/3twom2/who_else_on_here_didnt_know_they_were_trans_until/

Trauma and Transness: https://letsqueerthingsup.com/2016/01/16/trauma-and-transness-why-i-didnt-always-know-i-was-transgender/

What It's Like to Transition at 70: https://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/gender-affirmation-surgery_us_5bb3a27be4b0d1ebe0e568f0

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You're not garbage, okay? THIS WEEK: A conversation with transgender musician & political theorist Molly.Noise! We discuss the subtle ways language assumes maleness, the insidious ways we destroy ourselves to fit in, how we systematically devalue our art and our work in order to seem humble, the ways we apologize for existing, the ways we situate ourselves as closeted trans people in sex and relationships, the mirror phase of development in relation to gender performance, and so much more. What a conversation this was!

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Molly's Stuff!

Bandcamp:mollynoise.bandcamp.com
Twitter: @ImPureNoise
Soundcloud: soundcloud.com/user-224272569

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I have finally embraced the inevitable evolution of this podcast into a self-help advice show. THIS WEEK: The fear of coming out and transitioning even when support is likely; the gravity of secrets and the allure of questions left unanswered; the complications of being a transgender man and the child of immigrants; how to con your ungrateful parents out of money and live your best life; why your ungrateful parents are trash and how you don't owe them a dang thing; reiterating the fact that it is okay to come out as trans but to desist later. Seriously! Coming out as trans is not a fact you've carved out in stone. Identity is weird and it's all a subjective nightmare. Stop stressing and just experiment!

ALSO: Vote! Vote in the dang midterms!! Vote vote vote VOTE VOTE

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As this week comes to a close, it's hard not to feel like the US government is openly loading the gun they'll soon use for our execution. It's hard not to feel like you're going crazy as everyone else gaslights you by insisting that it's just a distraction from whatever the real problem is. Violence against transgender people is all too present already, but now we face the prospect of a mob of emboldened, bigoted blackshirts (or, in this case, redhats) taking their frustrations out on us without the fear of legal ramification. It's overwhelming, it's painful, it is traumatic.

This episode is not a solution. I don't know what the solution could possibly be. I just know we need to feel entitled to our emotions if we want to survive the years to come.

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be safe out there.

That's right, you've been reading this podcast all along! THIS WEEK: Is it time to panic yet? Are we allowed to panic? Is it time to finally start saying, hey, maybe the States are in a bit of a pickle vis-a-vis fascism and blackshirt violence? Is the alarm only valid when it's rung by a straight cis able-bodied white guy? Am I being sensationalist by earnestly googling how to gtfo of the country? Am I losing my mind right now? Because it feels like I'm losing my mind right now. ALSO: Coming out to family, how to dress in gender-affirming clothes without outing yourself to the world, and a disappointing aside about western RPGs.

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Sometimes, things are okay. THIS WEEK: Discussing the sudden quintupling of my audience following the release of a video about Natalie Wynn of ContraPoints; answering listener questions about nonbinary identity, internal transgender repression, and the need for identifying one's birth gender within the discourse; the nasty insinuations of the healthy that one needs only to just "do it" to get healthy, and how difficult it truly is for someone with a mood disorder to live a healthy lifestyle.

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It's the thirtieth episode, and a full year after recording episode one! THIS WEEK: Answering more spam mail, answering an actual listener question about whether one can be too well off to call themselves trans and begin transitition; discussing what has changed in the year since I came out, including the recent revelation that I am genderqueer; talking about the recent Contrapoints video "The Aesthetic" and some criticisms of it (I ended up making a video about this, which you can find right here), including the nature of unfulfilling and cynical art, and the lessons one might take from Nineteen Eighty-Four. Identity! What the h*ck is it?

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