What happens when you really believe nothing you do is worth the space it occupies? THIS WEEK: A flurry of life updates, including film awards, clothing swaps, and joyful conversations; how being transgender and/or being an artist comes with the constant baggage of imposter syndrome, wondering if you really are what you are, if you're just wasting everybody's time; learning that it isn't arrogant to feel that what you have spent years working on is actually pretty good; and, as always, tackling the patriarchy and the dumb rhetoric used by the dopes trapped within it.

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What's going on in the world today? Probably nothing good! THIS WEEK: Updates about my life, including having a pleasant 4/20 (no relation); federal court overturns transgender military ban, which is a... good thing?; Boston's anti-discrimination laws protecting trans folks are on the ballot again, because the GOP really wants mandatory crotch inspections at every bathroom door; if you're going to make propaganda, at least put some money into it; Sarah has a crisis and slowly melts into a puddle of stress.

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Fun fact: sometimes coming out as transgender can be a good thing! THIS WEEK: I had my third laser appointment and it wasn't (as) miserable! Searching for grad school, giving mock lectures, finding a passion, working on a youtube show and a podcast while also trying to find hormones and do lasers and be able to pay bills all at once; having something to live for; learning to feel alright about oneself. Barebones by way of topics this week, but dense in terms of verbiage!

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When transitioning, it helps to look at the bigger picture. THIS WEEK: Impatiently waiting for laser hair removal to yield a fruitfully barren face; facial hair as a barrier to seeing myself as my preferred gender; wishing for a transgender data nexus; pros and cons of going the less-than-legal route for hormone replacement therapy; am I imagining progress? Hairgrowth cycles and why LHR takes so long; trying to make friends and find a trans/NB community; failed attempts at socializing; a crowded trans friendly board game night; the euphoria of being gendered correctly; and a few words about my recently released video about Twin Peaks.

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Looking back on those first days of accepting my transness. THIS WEEK: Reading Twitter threads from July, August, and September of 2017 about realizing I was transgender, doubting whether I was transgender, and then accepting that yeah, I was transgender. The influence of ContraPoints, Zinnia Jones, and assorted trans spotlights; "I'm definitely not trans" means you're probably trans; the importance of seeing the variety of transgender experiences, and how hairy, overweight, or otherwise atypical-bodied people transition; transition goals that have been met, to my own surprise; and the performance of an old poem that is, looking back, totally about body dysphoria.

The blog I read from here was, essentially, the backdoor pilot of this very show. You can find it right here: https://zaraenthused.tumblr.com/

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For the wayward soul who just wants to get blasted in the face by high-powered lasers. THIS WEEK: How to talk to professionals; why to get laser treatments; what laser hair removal is and how it works; how LHR compares to electrolysis in terms of time, pain, and cost; what a laser appointment looks like; LHR's longterm effectiveness; how to avoid outdated information; diversifying your porfolio of first-hand accounts from across the web; my experience with LHR, from length of the session to the particular sensation of the treatment itself; cost/benefit analysis and strategies for maximizing the effectiveness and cost of your treatments with hormone replacement therapy on the horizon; learning to overcome dysphoria; and at last, a few life updates involving pants, epilation, and Twin Peaks.

NOTE: The audio of my actual LHR session has been drastically edited for time. It was short, but not that short.

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When you're waiting to start, all you can think is what happens next. THIS WEEK: Questions about temporality, the bad sounds of piano, the body hair situation, how tweezers are the gateway drug to epilation, a quick first-hand account of what epilating feels like, a rant about noisy chairs, imagined placebo feminization, WHAT IS A PRETTY HAND???, the strawman of autogynephilia, the question of vocal coaching, David Lynch, the spirituality of being transgender, and an exerpt from a book that will probably never see the light of day.

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How do you find a new name for a new you? THIS WEEK: My habit of connecting names to characters; the unintuitive intuition it takes to find a new name; the incomprehensibility of the universe; the terror of going out in girl mode for the very first time publicly; "transition" as an actual phase; nervous hair plucking tics; talking frankly about SEX REASSIGNMENT SURGERY (which I incorrectly refer to as "gender reassignment surgery"); the specifics of SRS for trans women; how it feels when you aren't the trans person who hates your genitals or your entire body; trying to find some peace with yourself.

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Transgender healthcare advice is best served from uneducated cisgender practitioners. THIS WEEK: 2018 plans (again); spending time with family; more doubts about being trans; what would have helped me come out sooner?; a dream of normalcy that is probably too good to be true; crossdressing advice from a friend; a twitter thread from @transscribe where trans people discuss the many, many, many ways they've been ignored, ill-served, or outright abused by a poorly trained and biased medical establishment.

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Shut up, Zara! Let someone else talk for once. THIS WEEK: Carta Monir discusses the themes of her comics, the intersection of video games and real life, the way the internet exposes young people to new ideas, the way cis comfort is centered in trans coming out narratives, how comics are the best medium for depicting trans people, recommendations for where to buy cheap clothes, talking dead moms, indie comic recommendations, and plans for the future.

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You can check out all her work at cartamonir.com
And you can hear her on the podcast We Should Be Friends

Here follows a list of all the comics we discussed/Carta explicitly recommended:
Stealth Mechanic by Carta Monir
Lara Croft Was My Family by Carta Monir
Meet n Fuck by Carta Monir
I Fell Asleep... by Carta Monir

Internet Murder Revenge Fantasy by Merritt K
Titty Chop Boob Slash by Higu Rose
Sex Fantasy by Sofia Foster-Dimino
Mickey Z
Youth in Decline
Michael Deforge
Jillian Tamacki
Super Mutant Magic Academy
Annie Mok
Carolyn Nowak
Czapbooks
Small Press Expo

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